Enough is enough

And this isnt drama. Despite of all the happiness i felt on the other side of my life, this is the only thing i could not get rid of. Im tired of all this. Im done with this. Its time for me to follow my heart. Ikut hati mati? You're the one whos not following your heart, thats why your life turns out to be rubbish! And dragging all of us along now. Stop ruining our life. What do you know about us? See how am i feeling today after going through all that? Non of you two knows how to comfort me back. One got mad, the other ignores. How lucky i am to be your child. No? Not at all! I dont need this, or maybe i dont need your kindness if its only pretending to be. You're only nice in few moments, moments after that, you treated us like we're nothing to you. I dont know what others felt, but they were not here, barely being at home except for the youngest one. She's spoiled, too much. Dont blame others, dont blame her, you both shaped her unconsciously with no guilt to be like that. I should have realized that things wont get better no matter how i try to fix them back. I should have realized about the first alarm, or a better word is, a reminder, from my sister at twitter, saying that "I think Ramadhan is going to be tough, hope it'll make us stronger. Have faith". Hahaha sampai bila?! Im 20 now, i had enough of those misery years! :( 

I am sorry for the rough entry, Welcoming Ramadhan, happy fasting people. I hope yours is way better than mine. Take care. Love you x